I hope my best friend Kelly Le reads this because I really want to see you during Spring Break :D And if you have other plans I'll be sad D:
So my Spring Break is actually pretty lousy because it's only from 3/3 to 3/8.
Five fucking days. I have no plans whatsoever but if I end up being bored I will probably work on my cosplay for Animazement 2011 which I will be Glaceon this year.
Last year I was Pikachu which ended up being a success, but for some reason this year I am sooo lazy to do anything about my cosplay. I haven't bought anything to make my outfit, haven't gone out of my way to make it a priority.
Oh Kelly, you better come this year bitch D<
Main thing that has been holding me back is school and lack of monies really. But! I just got my financial aid check in the mail yesterday so now I can actually make it happen w00tw00t!
But of course I'm not going to be entirely selfish, I think about my friends all the time so I will be also picking up little gifts to give to them. Ahem Kelly! If I get to see her D:
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Monday, January 17, 2011
Hopeless Romantics
It has occurred to me recently that a lot of my friends and myself are going through break ups but the after effects affect us all differently. Some people try so hard to look for a relationship they don't even care who they date. Some people wallow in despair and think about their ex every waking second. My heart really goes out to my friends.
Speaking for myself though, I broke up with my last ex about three months ago and I was absolutely devastated. But I got over it about a month or two later. Of course with a lot of crying, not eating, but more importantly supportive friends. Dear gawd if I didn't talk to someone about my break up I'd probably drown in my own tears. Still, only a month or two and then I was fine.
Now two guy friends in particular just seem hopeless. It seems the only time they ever even talk to me is when they need to vent. Pisses me off sometimes but I understand what they are going through and going through it alone will only worsen. They are so scared that they will never find "true" love again so they make themselves unavailable just so they can wait for their ex to magically realize breaking up was the stupidest idea ever.
How stupid fucking stupid.
One of them has been waiting for iunno...HALF A YEAR! The other one...MORE THAN HALF A MOTHERFUCKING YEAR! And yeah yeah I'm not suppose to judge but WHAT THE FUCK LAH!? I think, but this is just MY opinion, half a year is a bit much to sulk over a long gone relationship.
The way I see it is that if you think there was more good than bad in the relationship, you should remember it as a good memory and that you should move on to make more good memories. But if there was more bad than good then why the hell are you stuck on it? Oddly enough I have a friend who is in the more bad than good situation and just won't let go yet.
What I'm trying to say is, why are people so addicted to love? It's not even real, and don't even try to say you are dating the love of your life for two weeks now, you can shut the fuck up. Why is it that people want to love someone else more than themselves? They want to spoil someone, hold someone, and love them when they very well know that someone doesn't give a shit about them.
For me I like to remember all the nice things my ex has done for me and just keep it at that. Don't want to be quick to look for another relationship. You know the rebound guy is called a rebound guy for a good reason. Because you are weak, vulnerable, and stupid you don't even realize who you are dating till you changed your relationship status on Facebook. More than half the time, it's a damn loser.
I know it's hard but you really have to detach yourself after a while and just admit that it ended for a reason.
Jar full of hugs,
Kupo
Speaking for myself though, I broke up with my last ex about three months ago and I was absolutely devastated. But I got over it about a month or two later. Of course with a lot of crying, not eating, but more importantly supportive friends. Dear gawd if I didn't talk to someone about my break up I'd probably drown in my own tears. Still, only a month or two and then I was fine.
Now two guy friends in particular just seem hopeless. It seems the only time they ever even talk to me is when they need to vent. Pisses me off sometimes but I understand what they are going through and going through it alone will only worsen. They are so scared that they will never find "true" love again so they make themselves unavailable just so they can wait for their ex to magically realize breaking up was the stupidest idea ever.
How stupid fucking stupid.
One of them has been waiting for iunno...HALF A YEAR! The other one...MORE THAN HALF A MOTHERFUCKING YEAR! And yeah yeah I'm not suppose to judge but WHAT THE FUCK LAH!? I think, but this is just MY opinion, half a year is a bit much to sulk over a long gone relationship.
The way I see it is that if you think there was more good than bad in the relationship, you should remember it as a good memory and that you should move on to make more good memories. But if there was more bad than good then why the hell are you stuck on it? Oddly enough I have a friend who is in the more bad than good situation and just won't let go yet.
What I'm trying to say is, why are people so addicted to love? It's not even real, and don't even try to say you are dating the love of your life for two weeks now, you can shut the fuck up. Why is it that people want to love someone else more than themselves? They want to spoil someone, hold someone, and love them when they very well know that someone doesn't give a shit about them.
For me I like to remember all the nice things my ex has done for me and just keep it at that. Don't want to be quick to look for another relationship. You know the rebound guy is called a rebound guy for a good reason. Because you are weak, vulnerable, and stupid you don't even realize who you are dating till you changed your relationship status on Facebook. More than half the time, it's a damn loser.
I know it's hard but you really have to detach yourself after a while and just admit that it ended for a reason.
Jar full of hugs,
Kupo
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Short people
Are we not taken that seriously? Is it so hard to believe that a teeny can get mad? You think you can just push us around so easily and we won't think anything of it? You are terribly wrong.
I have a lot of online friends and when they find out that I am only 5'2'' they automatically think I'm some cutesy, harmless being. If I say something that makes me mad you think you're cute when you go and actually do it?
NO FOO
One of my pet peeves is when people use the suffixes -kun, and -chan AND THEY DON'T EVEN FLUENTLY KNOW THE ACTUAL LANGUAGE.
Huge pet peeve. Anyway, I decided to post that on my facebook and a few people decided they thought "Hey let's joke around with this girl, Jennifer-chan!"
Are you kidding me? You think it's some cute joke? Sure it sounds like it but personally it strikes me as you are a severe nuisance. I swear I was about to delete this kid so fast.
Why don't you believe me that it really makes me mad? Why would you even dare make me mad? In fact, what is a short midget going to do? Put on a cutesy pout face? What are you, fucking ignorant?
If someone has a pet peeve I will respect them in not doing or saying the particular thing. I mean even one of my friends hates this emoticon "=|" so whenever I talk to her I don't use it.
It may not seem like a big thing to you but it is to the person you are bothering. You know you could be bringing up some bad memory and you just made it a whole lot worse by not knowing.
Also another factor that contributes to being short is being Asian. As if we are seen as quiet little people who have the greatest tolerant in the world. Sure, some people are. But if anyone knows me when I get mad I am pretty serious.
Of course I know it is hard to tell with my online friends because it is well online. You can only guess my tone of voice when typing. But seriously, when someone types "I R MAD ABOUT------" I'd question it but I won't actually be an asshole and go and do what pisses them off.
But then I notice if the person happens to be some statue-like person they get more respect. Just because simply they have to look down on you? Is that so intimidating or something?
Cliche or not but short people can go for the quick nut shot. Don't think I'm joking either. Of course the taller person knows it's coming but half the time fail to stop it. Or at least that is my probability count.
Jar full of hugs,
Kupo
I have a lot of online friends and when they find out that I am only 5'2'' they automatically think I'm some cutesy, harmless being. If I say something that makes me mad you think you're cute when you go and actually do it?
NO FOO
One of my pet peeves is when people use the suffixes -kun, and -chan AND THEY DON'T EVEN FLUENTLY KNOW THE ACTUAL LANGUAGE.
Huge pet peeve. Anyway, I decided to post that on my facebook and a few people decided they thought "Hey let's joke around with this girl, Jennifer-chan!"
Are you kidding me? You think it's some cute joke? Sure it sounds like it but personally it strikes me as you are a severe nuisance. I swear I was about to delete this kid so fast.
Why don't you believe me that it really makes me mad? Why would you even dare make me mad? In fact, what is a short midget going to do? Put on a cutesy pout face? What are you, fucking ignorant?
If someone has a pet peeve I will respect them in not doing or saying the particular thing. I mean even one of my friends hates this emoticon "=|" so whenever I talk to her I don't use it.
It may not seem like a big thing to you but it is to the person you are bothering. You know you could be bringing up some bad memory and you just made it a whole lot worse by not knowing.
Also another factor that contributes to being short is being Asian. As if we are seen as quiet little people who have the greatest tolerant in the world. Sure, some people are. But if anyone knows me when I get mad I am pretty serious.
Of course I know it is hard to tell with my online friends because it is well online. You can only guess my tone of voice when typing. But seriously, when someone types "I R MAD ABOUT------" I'd question it but I won't actually be an asshole and go and do what pisses them off.
But then I notice if the person happens to be some statue-like person they get more respect. Just because simply they have to look down on you? Is that so intimidating or something?
Cliche or not but short people can go for the quick nut shot. Don't think I'm joking either. Of course the taller person knows it's coming but half the time fail to stop it. Or at least that is my probability count.
Jar full of hugs,
Kupo
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Family Issues
So I've noticed that this week has been particularly difficult on a few people I know. I have also been weighed down with bad news so I can sympathize with my peers and even my family.
But lately I think my mother and sister have been a bit rough on me. Whenever they are going through bad times they tend to lash out on me. As my previous post stated how much of a bitch my sister is.
The thing is that she is going through a very very hard decision right now. Her fiancée has to move to China for a year for business purposes. She has to choose between quitting her job and moving with him to China or stay here and not seeing him for a year.
And I can't imagine how hard that must be. If no one wants to believe me but I am sincerely sorry for a choice that hard to be put on her.
Now my mother, I don't know where to start with her. Well for one, she works a lot, she has two jobs to keep her busy. Her husband is in Vietnam at the moment so she doesn't have a lot of people to talk to. Plus she has to cook for me and drive me around until I get my license.
Once again, if no one wants to believe me, but I am sorry to burden you Linda. I have not been the best child, I have given you a hard time, and maybe I should actually have a family dinner with you.
But there is something I hate that the both of you do. If you haven't realized it already but you guys tend to lash out on me when you've had a bad day or frustrated with something. I know I am the crybaby of the family and I literally cry about anything, and that is why you guys pick on me because I'm such a softie.
Over quite some time I've just taken your insults and trying not to say anything back. Looking at my thighs, start giggling, telling me I need to start working out. Commenting about my non-successful friends, as if you yourself think you know them.
What you guys say really really hurts. Don't you understand how much I take in your remarks? I know I seem immune but I don't want to start breaking down right in front of you guys all the time. And what's really bad is that you've guys seen me cry so much it doesn't affect you guys in the least bit.
I'm not saying you should pity me but at least try to take my feelings into consideration.I am human. Words do hurt. I am a girl. I think about my appearance all the time. The feeling of sadness overrides the feeling of hunger. Which is kind've weird because most people eat more when they are sad but that's not the case here.
Our family is so weird, we can never talk to each other about our problems.
Jar full of hugs,
Kupo
But lately I think my mother and sister have been a bit rough on me. Whenever they are going through bad times they tend to lash out on me. As my previous post stated how much of a bitch my sister is.
The thing is that she is going through a very very hard decision right now. Her fiancée has to move to China for a year for business purposes. She has to choose between quitting her job and moving with him to China or stay here and not seeing him for a year.
And I can't imagine how hard that must be. If no one wants to believe me but I am sincerely sorry for a choice that hard to be put on her.
Now my mother, I don't know where to start with her. Well for one, she works a lot, she has two jobs to keep her busy. Her husband is in Vietnam at the moment so she doesn't have a lot of people to talk to. Plus she has to cook for me and drive me around until I get my license.
Once again, if no one wants to believe me, but I am sorry to burden you Linda. I have not been the best child, I have given you a hard time, and maybe I should actually have a family dinner with you.
But there is something I hate that the both of you do. If you haven't realized it already but you guys tend to lash out on me when you've had a bad day or frustrated with something. I know I am the crybaby of the family and I literally cry about anything, and that is why you guys pick on me because I'm such a softie.
Over quite some time I've just taken your insults and trying not to say anything back. Looking at my thighs, start giggling, telling me I need to start working out. Commenting about my non-successful friends, as if you yourself think you know them.
What you guys say really really hurts. Don't you understand how much I take in your remarks? I know I seem immune but I don't want to start breaking down right in front of you guys all the time. And what's really bad is that you've guys seen me cry so much it doesn't affect you guys in the least bit.
I'm not saying you should pity me but at least try to take my feelings into consideration.I am human. Words do hurt. I am a girl. I think about my appearance all the time. The feeling of sadness overrides the feeling of hunger. Which is kind've weird because most people eat more when they are sad but that's not the case here.
Our family is so weird, we can never talk to each other about our problems.
Jar full of hugs,
Kupo
Monday, November 1, 2010
Dear Sister
You are a bitch.
I'm not just saying that because she has insulted or done something to make me mad, its just the truth.
For the past few years she has had a very easy life. Money to spare. Eight year relationship with a wealthy boyfriend. A huge engagement ring on her finger. With all of her success it has made her dislike things she use to take appreciation. Leftovers my my parents make. My artwork.
Now that she has money she doesn't want old food. Apparently my artistic skills are sad and she is better than everyone.
Which is probably true but geez...
KEEP IT TO YOURSELF
Can't just act nice? Take the damn food and throw it away when you get home! Mother won't find out! Lie to my face and say my sketches are good! I CAN'T TELL THROUGH YOUR CALLOUS FACE ANYWAY
Money really does change people.
Jar full of hugs,
Kupo
I'm not just saying that because she has insulted or done something to make me mad, its just the truth.
For the past few years she has had a very easy life. Money to spare. Eight year relationship with a wealthy boyfriend. A huge engagement ring on her finger. With all of her success it has made her dislike things she use to take appreciation. Leftovers my my parents make. My artwork.
Now that she has money she doesn't want old food. Apparently my artistic skills are sad and she is better than everyone.
Which is probably true but geez...
KEEP IT TO YOURSELF
Can't just act nice? Take the damn food and throw it away when you get home! Mother won't find out! Lie to my face and say my sketches are good! I CAN'T TELL THROUGH YOUR CALLOUS FACE ANYWAY
Money really does change people.
Jar full of hugs,
Kupo
Saturday, October 9, 2010
It's been a while
Okay, more than a while. Like, a REALLY REALLY long time. At first my phone broke and I didn't feel like blogging because I had no pictures to show, but then I just got really lazy ahahahahaha.
Reason why I decided to blog today right now is because I broke up a ten and a half month relationship with my boyfriend. Let me repeat myself, I did the breaking up part, not him.
It all started when I logged on Facebook today and a friend posted a music video as her comment. 2NE1 - Go away is the song. As I was watching it reminded me of the situation with my first boyfriend. How he broke up with me, got together with another girl right after, and not physically but mentally hurt me.
Then I started to think about the current relationship I was in now. Unhappy, always getting mad at him, second guessing our relationship. I knew that we were going to break up some time soon, and that I might as well do it now.
Before I did it though, I was trembling, I was crying, and I was scared. Was this the right thing to do? Do I still care about him? Of course I care about him, I love him. But I can't allow myself to be unhappy anymore.
Though I always thought he would always keep me happy. When we first dated I never thought I was going to fall in love, and yet it just kind've happened. It was weird because at that time I didn't want to have anything to do with my love life, I just put it on pause. But as we kept talking he somehow found my play button.
Our relationship was like a happy upbeat song that felt like it would be on repeat forever. I was so happy. But of course the beginnings of relationships are always like that.
Lately, we barely talk, he wasn't being affectionate anymore, it felt like I was single anyway. I just felt so alone. Feeling this lonely I might as well be single anyway right? So, I made that happen.
This is no bitter ending though, he is still a very important person to me. We are friends that still talk non awkwardly. And I may be bawling out my eyes right now, but it won't be like this for long.
Jar full of hugs,
Kupo
Reason why I decided to blog today right now is because I broke up a ten and a half month relationship with my boyfriend. Let me repeat myself, I did the breaking up part, not him.
It all started when I logged on Facebook today and a friend posted a music video as her comment. 2NE1 - Go away is the song. As I was watching it reminded me of the situation with my first boyfriend. How he broke up with me, got together with another girl right after, and not physically but mentally hurt me.
Then I started to think about the current relationship I was in now. Unhappy, always getting mad at him, second guessing our relationship. I knew that we were going to break up some time soon, and that I might as well do it now.
Before I did it though, I was trembling, I was crying, and I was scared. Was this the right thing to do? Do I still care about him? Of course I care about him, I love him. But I can't allow myself to be unhappy anymore.
Though I always thought he would always keep me happy. When we first dated I never thought I was going to fall in love, and yet it just kind've happened. It was weird because at that time I didn't want to have anything to do with my love life, I just put it on pause. But as we kept talking he somehow found my play button.
Our relationship was like a happy upbeat song that felt like it would be on repeat forever. I was so happy. But of course the beginnings of relationships are always like that.
Lately, we barely talk, he wasn't being affectionate anymore, it felt like I was single anyway. I just felt so alone. Feeling this lonely I might as well be single anyway right? So, I made that happen.
This is no bitter ending though, he is still a very important person to me. We are friends that still talk non awkwardly. And I may be bawling out my eyes right now, but it won't be like this for long.
Jar full of hugs,
Kupo
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Animazement 13
Oh my damn, I had so much fun.
So many good and bad cosplayers, whether I admired them or made fun of them it was all in good taste. Well not really, some girls were wearing some nasty things. Like it was a combination between play boy bunny and a pokemon o.0?
There was even this one other Pikachu girl that looked like a total skank. She had fish nets, booty short shorts, it was pretty gross. At one point she was going up the escalators and I was going down, and we totally gave each other the evil eye ahahahahahahaha.
There were actually a lot of people cosplaying as Pikachu, and most of them FAILEDDD, definitely hating on me too. Their outfits were just a full piece Pikachu hoodie. At least I customized mine soooooo BE JEALOUS.
But now let's talk about the guys, holy shit lah some guys were hawt as hell! I even nicknamed this one guy "Walking sex" I am mad that I didn't get a picture of him though. I think I was too mezmerized lawl.
Some of the guys I thought were guys were actually GIRLS 0.0 I'm sitting here thinking they are fine as hell and I see them turn around and it's like OHHHH SHIETT. Oh well, they were still damn hawt anyway.
hawt guy
some akatsuki
Axel
his weapon 0.0
pocky guy in the background XD
Kratos hawt damn!
Akamaru from behind
Kagome and Hisagi
some hawt Asian guy
gross
Tifa with a fail pink arm bow
o.0
she was pretty hawt
Pokemon musical
Kikyo or Kaede?
another hawt guy
MUDKIP<3
Pokemon unite :3
Sora
dayummm look at that weapon
I took this while we were both riding the escalator
how cute n.n
some Pikachus hanging their head in shame when they saw me
AHAHAHAHAHA
ummmmmm...
Chris and sage Naruto
Me and Ash Ketchum
oh my...
weapon<3
over sized Gir and Pikachu 0.0
LAWL
Anbus
cool guy
Key bladeeeee
his weapon is pretty dope
Hinata (actually it was a guy XD)
yet another Ash Ketchum
Cactus thing from Digimon?
Sailor Moon aahahahaha
Prettyyyyyy
I was about to buy this
*mouth drop*
so random
Anbu Kakashi
nearly took my breath away
SAMUS!
he was pointing at me *giggles*
I have no idea
Love cube!
XDD
Princess Azula
TETRIS OH MY DAMN
he was kind've hawt
My baby
<3
concert
lead singer of NOIZ
BOMBERMANNNNN
Lawl Phillup
random top hat guy
Ashley and I
She was cat woman :3
Another Sailor Moon
someone had a seizure and these people came
Glaceon
Full Metal
And here are some of me:
my pro ass tail
classic pose
camwhore shot #1
camwhore shot #2
What a great day, to prove it I came home tired, dizzy, impaired hearing, and not being able to walk properly. No I was not drunk or any of the sort, I just simply walked a lot and forgot about eating. I am really satisfied though. Ever since Pokemon came out I was always in love with Pikachu in my childhood years. I never thought I would be able to live it. I indeed poured my heart out into making my costume, trying to perfect and epitomize the Pikachu. I think I did a pretty good job.
Jar full of hugs,
Kupo
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