Family Issues

So I've noticed that this week has been particularly difficult on a few people I know. I have also been weighed down with bad news so I can sympathize with my peers and even my family.

But lately I think my mother and sister have been a bit rough on me. Whenever they are going through bad times they tend to lash out on me. As my previous post stated how much of a bitch my sister is.

The thing is that she is going through a very very hard decision right now. Her fiancée has to move to China for a year for business purposes. She has to choose between quitting her job and moving with him to China or stay here and not seeing him for a year.

And I can't imagine how hard that must be. If no one wants to believe me but I am sincerely sorry for a choice that hard to be put on her.

Now my mother, I don't know where to start with her. Well for one, she works a lot, she has two jobs to keep her busy. Her husband is in Vietnam at the moment so she doesn't have a lot of people to talk to. Plus she has to cook for me and drive me around until I get my license.

Once again, if no one wants to believe me, but I am sorry to burden you Linda. I have not been the best child, I have given you a hard time, and maybe I should actually have a family dinner with you.

But there is something I hate that the both of you do. If you haven't realized it already but you guys tend to lash out on me when you've had a bad day or frustrated with something. I know I am the crybaby of the family and I literally cry about anything, and that is why you guys pick on me because I'm such a softie.

Over quite some time I've just taken your insults and trying not to say anything back. Looking at my thighs, start giggling, telling me I need to start working out. Commenting about my non-successful friends, as if you yourself think you know them.

What you guys say really really hurts. Don't you understand how much I take in your remarks? I know I seem immune but I don't want to start breaking down right in front of you guys all the time. And what's really bad is that you've guys seen me cry so much it doesn't affect you guys in the least bit.

I'm not saying you should pity me but at least try to take my feelings into consideration.I am human. Words do hurt. I am a girl. I think about my appearance all the time. The feeling of sadness overrides the feeling of hunger. Which is kind've weird because most people eat more when they are sad but that's not the case here.

Our family is so weird, we can never talk to each other about our problems.







Jar full of hugs,
Kupo